Feeling Restless
When you feel restless, feel restless, and when you feel unhappy, feel unhappy! These things have to be absorbed. One has to learn to live with the negative parts of one's being too; then only does one become whole.
We all want to live only with the positive part. When you are happy, you accept yourself; when you are unhappy you reject yourself. But you are both. When all things are flowing, you feel great; when everything has stopped and become stagnant, then you feel in hell. But both have to be accepted. This is how life is: life consists of hell and heaven together. The division of hell and heaven separately is a false division. There is no heaven up there and no hell down there; they are both here. One moment you are in heaven, another moment you are in hell.
One has to learn one's negative aspect too and one has to relax with it. Then you will be surprised one day that the negative part adds to the taste of life. It is not unnecessary; it gives spice to life. Otherwise life would become dull, monotonous. Just think – happy and happy and happy; what will you do then? Those moments of unhappiness again bring zest, search, adventure. Again you regain appetite.
To be with me means that you have to be with your totality of being. All the aspects of good and bad have to be accepted. There is no way to get rid of anything. Nobody ever gets rid of anything but one learns slowly, slowly to accept all. Then there arises a harmony between the dark and the light, and it is beautiful. Because of the contrast, life becomes a harmony.
So try to live these moments too. Don't make problems. Don't start thinking ‘What should I do so I am no more restless?’ When restless, be restless. This is my message. When unhappy, be unhappy. And don't make much fuss about it – just be unhappy; what else can you do?
It is just like the climate: it is summer and hot so what can you do? While it is hot, be hot and perspire, and when it is cold, shiver and enjoy it. Slowly slowly you will see the interrelationships of the polar opposites. And the day you understand that this polarity is you is a day of great understanding and revelation.
For three months accept everything. Good!
excerpt from Osho, The 99 Names of Nothingness, Chapter #8
